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| Happy Hunting, Sweetie... |
I love you more than any man has loved before
I love you more than all the stars up in the sky
I think that we should settle down
And live happily for ever after
What do you think of that...?
~Ben Folds
"The universe is brought back from the brink of destruction
Every time you smile."
~Ben Lee
Happy hunting, baby.
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| "Dream it, you fuckin' Dreamers" |
Hmmmmmmm...thinking. Well, to begin with, I'm listening to Songs for Silverman-which was what I was listening to on June 9th-seriously, soundtrack to my life. Heh. I dunno. It's good thinking music, which is good if you're feeling introspective (except for the new version of "Give Judy My Notice". I hate the new version.) I'v been feeling introspective a lot lately-lol-for those of you who couldn't tell. And if you couldn't tell, wtfn? Heh-sorry. Trying to cheer myself. If ya don't get that last joke, you clearly missed an awesome session of Steve's pirates campaign. Anywho, I dunno. Oh yes. Being introspective. Maybe this is an entry best suited for a different online journal de mi, but it shouldn't be too bad. I was at Nicole's party tonight (which was way cool, btw) and sometimes, I notice, I feel detatched. I don't mean to-I just start thinking-and before you know it, I'm lost in my thoughts and memories and everything else I keep stored up there. I talked w/ Rob today for about a half an hour which was really cool-it made me realize just how crazy life really is. Then we talked online and he gave some amazing words. Here's the snippet that I want everyone to remember:
stunman007: juuuuust checking
stunman007: so what else is new?
wildhoney40: I dunno
wildhoney40: do you ever feel like life is unfair?
wildhoney40: I know that you're philosophical...
stunman007: always
stunman007: that's why it's called life
stunman007: haha
wildhoney40: heh
wildhoney40: yeah, I guess
wildhoney40: that seems to be everyone's reaction when I ask them that
stunman007: meh
stunman007: as long as we have a dream,
stunman007: what is fair and what is unfair don't matter
stunman007: because we're always going for a dream
wildhoney40: yes-but when that dream is attained for a short time and then becomes unattainable again-it hurts
wildhoney40: and it makes things very sad
stunman007: dreams don't die
stunman007: they're always here and there
stunman007: we just have distractions along the way
wildhoney40: that's so true. thanks, rob. -do you think it's possible to keep a dream alive forever?
stunman007: sure
stunman007: why not?
wildhoney40: oh jesus, rob. I feel like such a little kid
wildhoney40: I dunno
stunman007: haha
stunman007: meh
wildhoney40: oh well
wildhoney40: haha such is life
stunman007: exactly
But it made me think-and gave me hope about a lot of things. I was talking to Jer about this concept last night-it'll take a second to get to it though. Be patient. Por favor. Sometimes (like just a few minutes ago) I thought of where I was exactly at this time a week ago. And then two weeks ago. And it made me so sad to know that that's no longer here and that I don't know what's going to happen and that no one ever does and that life is just crazy and unfair but so worth every second. And whenever I get (ick. the new rendition of "Give Judy" just came on. Ahhhhhh "Late". That's much better.) those moments, I realize that there are still years ahead. And it seems like if one keeps dreaming, then a dream never actually dies and one should really look more towards the future than whatever happened in the past (although those times can be wonderful to look back on-after all, your past experiences make you what and who you are). Basically, just hoping for the best and keeping your goals and emotions and dreams intact are really all one needs to maintain the happiness that they are searching for. Maybe I just sound like an idealist, but hey-where the fuck would the world be if there weren't any? Riddle me *that*, Batman! As I was typing this, I thought of some Oasis lyrics. I know you're all sick of reading lyrics off of my journals, but if they bug you, don't read 'em. There's almost always relevance to every song on here. Jesus christ. reading them now-they're damn close to home. Check 'em out.
I'm at the crossroads waiting for a sign
My life is standing still, but I'm still alive
Every night I think I know
In the morning where did he go
The answers disappear when I open my eyes
I'm no stranger to this place
Where real life and dreams collide
And even though I fall from grace
I will keep the dream alive
So...there you go. Hah-I have no idea how long this entry is now. I've sort of just been typing. Sorry if you're reading this. Lyrics, rants, philosophy, conversations...lots of stuff. All of this has just been really important to me lately-haha I dunno if I can say the same for all of you. But life and the future have really been on my mind. Sometimes I wish that I could just fast forward my life by about 8 years-to be settled down, to hopefully be where I want to be at the point in my life that I want to be at now. If that made any sense to people. I want to live my life how I hope it will be then. There we go. But I know that the next few years of college and what not will be major and that's exciting. Yeah, it's exciting. I'm sort of talking myself into that now. How lame is that. Talking yourself into something online. That's pretty damn weak-sauce. Lol-I guess the key is to just keep the ideals in mind and to look on them as frequently as possible. Okay. I guess I'm done. To quote Dane and his new cd, "Dream it, you fuckin' dreamers." Lol-so here's another picture, another true I love you, and a hope that everyone learns to not just let go of hope they have-for anything. It could be anything. G'night, guys.
stunman007: dreams don't die
stunman007: they're always here and there
stunman007: we just have distractions along the way
Thank you so much, Rob-you don't even know how much that helped me. |
| posted by stephy_andthejets @ 2:48 AM |
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