the good that won't come out: hmmm...

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hmmm...

Now 11:30 at night when you're tired is NOT a good time to be posting when you're a little angry.
But I will anyways.
I'm glad to have finally made the decisions to leave, and I'm so incredibly excited that my family (marginally including my mom-I know-crazy, right??) ;) is really supporting me on this..kudos to uncle barrett for talking to me for hours about it all (I love you, Unc!!!)

What I find the most odd about it all though, is that some of the people that I've grown closest to in high school are not as, well, there like they were before...well, ok. Let me start over. I think that I really just put too much stock in some people sometimes...but it's hard to draw that line b/c I grew up with some of the same people from preschool and before that until just before high school started. And even though I'm not near them in distance, they've still been really great with our friendships. All of a sudden, a lot of people from high school have sort of...dwindled off. I suppose this is the natural process of things, but I couldn't even listen to Rob when he told me that a year ago. I don't think it's so much that people are just gradually growing apart, I think it really is just part of a change in personality...including in myself, and at least, in the people that I'm ambiguously referring to. I know a couple who read this are of that party, but there's one who doesn't, and she keeps BACKING OUT on almost EVERY plan. With the DUMBEST excuses...and for the last few weekends ...I won't name him...but a current CoSA member and I were supposed to hang out with her and she kept trying to change things and we were like, "What are you doing???" ...which she always pretty much does. GOD ANGSTY BLOG POST. But it's the truth...and I've been noticing it for a few weeks in people...I'm becoming very close with some that I hadn't been before (haha-well, I've pretty much always been close w/ nicole and tony) BUT others too...more so than some of the people I would have called my best friends in high school (who I rarely even see or hear from unless I contact them first) and even then, things are oddly different and I don't feel like that friendship is really existant anymore. Ok...that's about all of it. Hah-I'm sorry to Imp...I'm sure that when you told me to update, you weren't expecting this. Lol-you are not involved in this. Fear not, oh silly one.
So, that's basically what I've been a little ...irked about lately. Aside from that, things are going well...next week is pretty much academic hell week, I see Jer sometime next month (!!!!) -and Steve-O is coming home in another 2 weeks or so, and he's deemed one day of this month "Shadow-a-Steph Day!"...he'll probably LOVE my Poli-Sci class much more than I do. PLUS, my humanities professor really resembles Michael Bluth. I keep trying to take a picture, but I don't want to be the freak in the class that other people catch taking pictures of the prof. Haha-I wish I had super cool spy gear...that'd be pretty handy right about now for that

:)

Mailing out the check tomorrow, wish me luck; and boy oh boy...here's the biggest step I've ever had to take in my life so far...hope it goes well

:)

g'night, everyone!

posted by stephy_andthejets @ 2:29 AM

3 Comments:

At 10:38 PM, Collin said…

Hey Steph,

I got your voicemail last night on this subject... I haven't had a chance to call you about it and my mother is cracking down on the phone time, but I promise to call you about it soon. I just want to let you know that I'm not trying to be vindictive... It's just been a busy semester. It's all winding down now, though, and I'm ready and waiting to spend lots of time this summer with one of my best friends :)
At 10:07 PM, Imp said…

COMIC-CON BITCHES!

whats vindictive mean collin? :|
At 1:05 AM, Unknown said…

aw stephie, i miss hanging out with you. i've been super busy all of this year and i know you've been as well. i'm very happy for your decision because i know it's what you want to do. i know we don't talk or hang out as much as we used to, but know that i'll be here for you. anywhere you go or i go, you'll always be my friend and i'll be there for you if you need me. do you need a place to stay? my house is always open. ok, this is getting really sappy but i mean it. good friends are hard to come by and i really want to stay friends with you.

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